I was walking with another veteran today. And he mentioned,” Come to Oregon on Vacation Leave on Probation”. It was as if he read my mind about this place. The saying holds strong here. The government is labeling everyone possible pulling them into their web. Once they suck you in its hard to get out. Living in a liberal state getting in trouble is more accepted here, but if I ever wanted to live somewhere nice I would have a hard time being excepted. The city ruined my life and labeled me someone im not and now I’m told its one of the only places that will house me. I hear from multiple people the last few days how the Oregon government ruined there life similarly to my experience. The entire system is disgusting and many people are repeating the flaws of it from there own experience. I know there are many people suffering everyday, because of corrupt government. It has me depressed and in a bad mode most of the time. I’ll never recovery from it and my life will always be more difficult now. Most of my family stood by as the government tore me apart. Many of them I’ll never forgive. They tell me the worse pain someone feels is the worse for them. They say if someone gets hurt and its the worse pain they have had then it is the worse pain they have experience and it is very real and difficult for them. They say it correlates to my experience. I barely see a connection. If someone gets a bruise it will heal in a week. If someone loses and arm they are disabled for life. I was disabled for life by the government. I do not enjoy life now. I hate it. My depression meds I take make me tired and drain me of energy. I can barely focus on difficult task. I do not function like I had. My support came after I was beaten to a pulp. The philosophy of family is much different than it’s ever been.