I am spearheading two business one non-profit and one for-profit. I’ve been taking the support from friends and family and amplifying that energy for conversion to business foundation work. There is much I need to learn still about assembling a group of scientist and how each individual is important and part of a masterpiece…

I’ve not wanted to be a leader for a plethora of reasons and I know some of the greatest so if I transition to a role that my peers seek guidance, support and courage from me I will most likely feel unworthy. However, I remember these great leaders I worked with in the military and even though I don’t intend to be in this type of role I am still trying to sharpen and improve my ability with communication and understanding where my peers are with events and life. I often refer to reverence, fortitude, perseverance as some of my greatest challenges and working consciously on myself repetitively to ensure a strong figure will be available for all. The goal is to be respectable and share the dream of growing the industry.

Rising to the occasion defined shows multiple definitions and/or interpretations. At first thought this phrase was thought as leader or instructor focusing a true aiming point. The definition of a leader doesn’t have to be definitive. The nuance I believe is a leader isn’t define, but instead displayed.

I have one entertaining thought that leadership roles could be more like musical chairs. Someone should not be expected nor should they except being a leader all the time.!? How could they. Instead i wish our business partners to be more like water and be fluid rising to the occasion as it calls and know when to be the student. I’ve heard in order to be a good teacher one must be a good student. Both of these positions I need work with haha.

Exclaimed by our HR department starting business and going off the beaten path people are of use of a pinnacle. One partner exclaimed im the pinnacle temporarily and should expect people to come to me for most if not all there questions. So a temporary role has been convinced that I should be wearing that hat.

I think in a way I am naive. My main grasp on business logistics stems from Systems Engineering Management (SEM) college sequence. Other than that my main skills in short terms is how to get something from point A to B in the most energy efficient way. Or how to generate and store energy. I often joke that I can write software in 7 languages but am terrible at pronunciation. In a SEM seminar the business model Toyota was studied, which was very successful. They treat everyone to feel equally important. Everyone is a scientist and part of a family. When introducing the philosophy into the business I reflect on this model and think about how each partner will thrive and grow with excitement to go to work. Paving a path to a creative environment is often at the forefront of the business philosophy shared. I might get over zealous or animated when stating everyone has a equal footing, but I still convey this message best I can. However, I still find many individuals still funneling through me for next steps to take.

Remembering that a good leader is never done learning and acknowledge that the business relationships strength is more valuable to me then gold. My thoughts grow complex and I stride to be of a certain professional with regards to tactfulness.

I’ve also realized that the complexity of leadership could correlate to myself and how I communicate, behave and acknowledge others. I did not realize I am already displaying leadership quality because of my vision and cultural philosophy I am trying to introduce to the business partner table.

There seems to be an inefficiency when no one is feeling the void or position of pinnacle. I recall smoothly transitioning into this void a few days ago finding a visible path for allowance and ease to freelance into the position that I had previously had many bias and superstitions about. The glove seemed to fit all to well. This fit already seem to give me a new fallacy or micro superiority complex. A filter snapped into place giving a sort of gravitational pull to continue forward with this hat of dignitary shredding the weight or active bias I had in place prior to the transition. It was a feeling i wanted to pay close attention to with how I changed. I will be contemplating on what the grey area is between leader and follower for the unforeseen future.

Something to note there did seem to be a momentum and natural rolling coming of more ease as it went to assume this stance. Some of the cumbersome feeling with business partner comunication seemed to fade away and a more firmly guided direction systematically find of took hold. I questioned this feeling wondering how much of it was for efficiency and how much of it was ego, but as my ego took over putting me on autodrive I did not feel consciously disconnected like I normally would when ego is back seating me. It felt more tangible and a sense of belonging was distinguishable. i was feeling normalized…

The discipline Ive practice which was believe to help with security concerns of over compensating in this leader role noticeable seem to have paid off. Every talk with partners our paths are become of tightly woven. I wonder how my path will effect he weave and is it or should it be more substantial.